You didn’t need to date me. You had the prospect. You might have gotten into my coronary heart, or at the very least into my mattress, however you turned down each alternatives. You didn’t need my affection. You didn’t need me.
You pulled at my heartstrings. You performed with my feelings. Then you definitely went weeks with out chatting with me. You flirted with different folks in entrance of me. You made me query my appears, query my requirements, query my value. You place me via a shit ton of backwards and forwards, solely to stroll away with out giving me something in return.
Half the time we spent collectively was sexually tensed, adrenaline fueled, butterfly inducing. However the remainder of the time was pure distress. It was time spent sitting up at evening, gazing my telephone, ready so that you can reply if you had already forgotten about me. It was time spent in entrance of the mirror, attempting to look good for you, if you barely even glanced my manner. It was time spent wallowing in self-doubt and self-hatred. It wasn’t something value lacking.
Regardless of how a lot effort I poured into you, you didn’t give me a chunk of your coronary heart. You gave me blended indicators. You gave me runaround solutions. You gave me heavy, moist baggage.
I wished you due to the joy, due to the thriller, perhaps even due to the chase. However that didn’t imply I wished the chase to final ceaselessly. I wished one thing actual with you. I wished to quiet down. I wished to be your just one.
I’d have beloved to get to know you higher, as greater than an eye-candy face and a horny voice, however you saved me at an arm’s size. At any time when it felt like I had chipped away at your partitions, you boarded them proper again up once more. You by no means let me creep too shut. You shut down round me. You made positive the one weak one within the room was me.
That didn’t cease me. I nonetheless texted you, flirted with you, put aside hours upon hours for you. I nonetheless whispered secrets and techniques about my worries and my previous and my household and my fears. And you continue to wished nothing to do with me. You rejected me. You might have had me in a heartbeat, however you turned me down with out a second thought.
I shouldn’t miss you as a result of there isn’t an opportunity in hell you miss me. You’ve moved on. You’re lengthy gone. You’re not dwelling on the smooth hearted lady who had a factor for you years in the past. You’ve in all probability forgotten all about me by now. It’s not such as you have been fascinated by me all that a lot even after we have been in every others lives, which is why it shouldn’t really feel prefer it’s a nasty factor you’ve run away.
We have been nothing. Not a pair. Not even associates, probably not. I meant completely nothing to you, so I don’t know why you continue to imply something in any respect to me.