I’m sorry about turning down plans (or canceling out of the blue on the final second) with shitty excuses. I do know you’re most likely aggravated with me. You’re most likely beginning to wonder if I’m avoiding you on function, whether or not I don’t need to be your pal anymore.
I notice how dangerous I’ve grow to be at retaining in contact with folks. I notice I’ve most likely made you’re feeling like I couldn’t care much less about spending time with you, such as you don’t imply something to me, like I’m bored of our friendship.
However that’s not the reality. I nonetheless love you. I nonetheless recognize you. I nonetheless need you in my world. The random days the place I’m going MIA have completely nothing to do with you. They need to do with me and my very own psychological well being.
I do know everybody has issues, everybody has their very own worrying issues to fret about, however not everybody retreats from their mates the best way I’ve. That’s why I need to say I’m sorry for ready so lengthy to reply your texts on some days and utterly ignoring your texts on different days. I’m sorry you’re all the time the one who sends the primary message, the one who checks in, the one who helps our friendship survive.
I do know you’re most likely judging me over my absences. You’re most likely pondering how exhausting is it to ship a textual content again? And also you’re proper, sending a textual content isn’t that huge of a deal, however once you put it on prime of the thousands and thousands of different issues I’ve to do this day, it will possibly overwhelm me. I can utterly shut down as a result of it appears like there’s an excessive amount of stress on me directly, too many expectations.
Typically, the tiniest job can really feel like probably the most troublesome factor on this planet. Typically, I can’t accomplish the identical issues everybody else round me appears to be undertaking with ease.
I’m sorry about dropping off the face of the planet however there are some days once I can’t deliver myself to maneuver from the sofa, not to mention transfer from the home. As a lot as I need to spend time with you, it isn’t all the time going to be an possibility for me.
I’m sorry about all of the instances you’ve caught me in little white lies about why I couldn’t hang around with you. Nevertheless it’s a lot simpler to inform you I’m caught at work or coming down with the flu than it’s to confess my psychological well being has been taking successful just lately. I hope you’ll be able to perceive that, even when you don’t approve of that.
I’m not attempting to make excuses for my dangerous conduct. My psychological well being doesn’t give me the liberty to deal with you want shit. I’m not attempting to be a nasty pal. I’m attempting to get my shit collectively. I’m looking for a technique to stability my social life with all the things else that’s been occurring with me. I’m attempting to do higher — however I’m sorry for all the things I’ve already achieved improper.