The solar is slipping past town skyline. You’re sat near me however we don’t contact. That was a part of the deal. It’s heat out, so heat all the things feels shut on my pores and skin. You pour champagne into plastic cups and we ‘cheers’ in opposition to the backdrop of bushes tops and tower blocks.
Our dialog dances between our childhoods and our desires. You ask me how I acquired the scar under my backside lip and it jogs my memory of my ex, however I don’t let you know that. You inform me I look lovely with out make-up and I consider mornings waking up beside you, questioning should you nonetheless crave me fully bare.
I watch your eyes as they repair on mine, journey my face and again once more. I’m wondering what you’re pondering. I feel I’d wish to kiss you, I do know I shouldn’t. I’m wondering in order for you it too and the entire area between us feels loaded. I’m wondering should you hang around with all your associates like this, I’m wondering if I’ll return to my mattress tonight or I’ll discover myself wrapped up in your arms once more. I don’t let myself imagine the latter however I really feel it in every single place.
It’s humorous, isn’t it? Discovering your approach to friendship after so lengthy chasing one thing extra. It’s an odd factor to unlearn the within of somebody’s mouth, to un-know how they style, to dam out the way in which they have been so capable of make your whole physique react by one look. It’s a tough job to know the brand new guidelines, to know the place the road is. To cease your self from turning up at their door for another night time resting your head in opposition to their chest as if it’s the most pure factor on the earth.
And so we spend one other night time beneath town lights, we snicker and we speak and we preserve forgetting to not contact. And the wine clouds our ideas and the beer makes you neglect and I’m drunk on the way in which you maintain my gaze once I’m telling you one thing painful. And all of it simply appears so foolish now, doesn’t it? All the chaos, the mess, the confusion. The questions which disappear within the area between us. The instances we instructed ourselves this was the tip, figuring out perhaps the tip received’t arrive anytime quickly and I hope it received’t. Not tonight.
And we’re right here now. In your residence. In your couch. So shut I can scent your washing detergent and the solar in your pores and skin. And I really feel your fingertips alongside my jaw and I don’t even take into consideration telling you it is a unhealthy concept. And your palms are beneath me, lifting me from the couch, you’re carrying me to your mattress and I feel, associates don’t kiss like this. Don’t contact like this. Don’t let my identify rumble out of them like a command, like this. They don’t sigh, don’t gasp, don’t breathe heavy in opposition to my ear like this. Buddies don’t get up tangled in one another the subsequent morning, nonetheless craving one another like this.